All i know is I stand in the doorway waiting for the words to come. They never do. But i just wait there for them. I wait and wait and wait for the words that will never come.

It's like... i have my mom's fiery temper and my dad's inability to speak his mind... and they just kind of combine and then explode into a fireball... yo-yoing back and forth between my head and my stomach. All while someone ignores, or doesn't even notice the fact that this is going on.

I can't fucking stand it.

It feels like an alien trying to burst out of my chest.

I don't even know what the fuck this feeling is.

I don't care if this doesn't make any sense... because quite frankly that's the response i've come to expect. Probably will be 0 comments on this one. Fine. Ignore.

Post edited at 8:09 pm on Nov. 29, 2008 by Everlongx

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sometimes that happens to me and all i relized i can do is brake something.. i know it sounds weird and stupid but like hit something like a door or something.. it helps..

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that's all i feel i can do.