My own attitude makes me sick. I know my friends love and care about me but at the same time it makes me feel so shitty that they don't make more of an effort to be around me. I keep thinking I'm boring, I second guess myself but then also I know I'm not boring because when I am around people they are all up in my shit ffs!!
I always think people are talking shit about me too. I hear my name being mentioned and assume it's negative (especially when I'm on LSD). I thought hey maybe no one wants to hang out with me because I'm too "crazy" so I've fucking chilled out on doing dxm but goddamn I can only take so much of this b.s.!
I feel like a worthless piece of shit most of the time.
------- set out runnin but I take my time a friend of the devil is a friend of mine if I get home before daylight, I just might get some sleep tonight.
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makingxmexsmile
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Lots of people are the same. It's hard to do, honestly. I just started acknolwedging that I AM kickass, but yes. I do still suck...
XD Kinda like a middle ground.
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aww don't feel like that, if you need to chat i'm here.
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Make a change? Go out and meet new people, that might help.
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xoAllixs0n
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I ALWAYS think people are talking shit.
I hear people laughing when they're in my vicinity, and I automatically think it's about me. Always.
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It will get better in time x
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Now I've started thinking maybe my friends only ever hung out with me because I always had drugs or was in the process of getting some.
awesomeeeeeeee.
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libertine
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I'm sure you get plenty of compliments, it's just a matter of learning to accept them as true rather than assuming something else.
My method is just to try to be as objective as possible when judging myself by really thinking about what people say rather than just listening to my own feelings. When you've got a more realistic picture of yourself it's easier to feel good about the good bits.
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I can empathise with a lot of those feelings. I was always told that if i acted confident, more people would be drawn to me, which would then make me really confident.
It works to an extent, and thats about the best advice i can give
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------- dont wonder why im not smiling, wonder why you are.
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------- set out runnin but I take my time a friend of the devil is a friend of mine if I get home before daylight, I just might get some sleep tonight.
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Quote: from MourningAir at 1:43 pm on Nov. 28, 2008
you're one to talk, coming into my thread "zomg I have so many more problems, pity me everyone!!11"
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Quote: from MourningAir at 1:59 pm on Nov. 28, 2008
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