When we went to leave, "my group" had 4 people standing on one side and the "other group" had 3 people standing there. They tried to hook me up with a different girl and it was so awkward. Couldnt figure out how to get out of it. I wanted her best friend.

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Steal the night. Kill the lights.

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well unlike some people im not mentally retarted so i dont so shit like that

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My first few times I didnt feel anything.

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And you, demon, what do you have faith in?
Nothing. I am so exquisitely empty

 You want her to like you for yourself, yet you are here grouching about how you think what everyone says is bullshit, you are really insecure, and stuff.

 You seem to only trust her. You depend on only her And that is a lot of stress put onto someone. When you keep telling her you cried, maybe that's the time she started distancing herself from you. Maybe she can't stand it.

 You need to be more independent. It's alright to feel insecure, but you need to start trusting more people. If you put all your faith on just one, in a way, you are harming the person whom you love and trust. Shit, I really can't explain. And I don't seem to be helping.

 I'm really confused. I don't really catch your story. So if you think I'm making mistakes or whatever feel free to tell me but just don't go all, 'dumb' and "didn't you read it" and stuff.

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from chaos comes clarity
last.fm

I also noticed how much my perception of everything changed within my mind (too long to go into details).
After half an hour of some serious mind-fucks I then joined the rest of my friends where we talked, ate and laughed the hardest and longest I had in my entire life.
It also opened my up alot more to my friends and let them know how happy I was to be here with them. This friend connection thing also remains with us today even when sober (although I dont get to see them often these days )

Lastly i also remember everything I did feeling like an adventure. even like going to the fridge to get a snack lol.  

Dam, I really really miss those times, funnest shit ever.

Post edited at 5:33 am on Dec. 9, 2008 by ThatVibe

Second time was a few months later. I lied to my mom and said I was going to my girl friend's house and had my two best friends (guys, we'll call them N and A) pick me up at the mall. We went to this little wooded area and smoked out of a pipe called Sherlock Holmes. We smoked quite a bit but I still wasn't high. Then we went to N's girlfriend's house and smoked a little. I still wasn't feeling it. We went to N's house and by then we were out of weed so I was like HEY I HAVE $20! So N calls some guy to bring the weed over.

Dude shows up with like 4 people, we're sitting in his room (there's like 5 of us at this point because other people joined us at N's girlfriend's house). We start smoking out of the dealer's chillum and all of a sudden I notice my friend J is there who I haven't really talked to since elementary school. I'm like HOLY SHIT IT'S J. OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD.  as my vision flips through pictures quickly like a movie frame

Things just got crazier and crazier that night and that's probably the highest I've ever been. I'm not gonna go into too much detail except to say that at one point A and I ended up at N's girlfriend's house knocking on her window because she said we could sleep there. It was like 5 in the morning and her neighbors came out, it was hilarious. We tried to act like we were just having a casual chat but wtf we're outside at 5 in the snow next to someone's house uhhh.

And that's when it all started

Post edited at 1:44 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 by MourningAir

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