So... one day, I want to be a doctor. An ER doctor to be exact. No, before you say anything, it's not about the money, because only a complete idiot would become a doctor just for the money.

I want to be a doctor, because I know it's something I would love to do for a living. I'm very interested in medicine and it's something I really do like. And believe me... I know I've got the damned brains do it.

The thing is... on my Dad's side of the family, one of my Dad's brothers is really elitist rich, and his three sons (my cousins) are all doctors. So I feel as though they've already taken all the glory away from me.

Because I feel like, if I do become a doctor, it won't be anything special because all of them are doctors too. And I feel like I won't be good enough or something.

I don't know how better to explain my feelings but it's horribly discouraging. I feel so God damned depressed about atm.