I've ruined my highschool years 6 years before they even started. My sister recorded a trick of me doing the splits on cam to her whole... whatever class it was for. Now people will think I'm gay... That is if I get that teacher, and they remember, or they show it as an example. ;_;

My underdeveloped masculine voice makes people think I'm gay already. But I'm not.

When I think of the memories, I scream without sound. Mental anguish is occurring. I can't figure out why.

This is not a suicide note. Nor will I be committing suicide later. I just need help. I need someone to help me figure out how I'm going to deal with high school. It's not something I can easily deal with, but to you it's probably so simple that you think my reasoning is stupid.

Post edited at 12:27 am on July 4, 2009 by Anonymous

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Can you go to another school?

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No. It'll still follow me to the other high school in town.

My parents don't find it a legitimate reason to move, and they don't want to waste gas to drive me to the town next over.

I'm a bit confused about what you did. You walked out in front of people in bad clothes... and you did the splits and your sister showed the video to her class?

Things move so fast at highschools, it's unlikely people will remember. If they do... laugh it off, or just roll your eyes. If it looks like you don't care, they won't get satisfaction from dwelling on it. They have too many other things to think about.

How old are you? Voices mature at different ages. One guy I knew still had a high voice when he was about 16. People got used to it. Years later he had a very deep voice.

A lot of drama can surround highschool, I know, but you will settle in.

You're voice for one will change,  you might be late for that part of puberty but it will change all the same. Also the thing about the splits, I know it worries you but please try not to stress over it. I've known people, popular kids in school, with their own share of bad childhood experiences, there are always ways to spin it. Just say you were into gymnastics, or martial arts, people buy that stuff.

As for the clothes, get a new wardrobe, problem solved, seriously. A big change and people just go "wow, he certainly got hot" because people care about who you are now, not who you were, we all go through stages and you'll go through plenty more before you even hit the end of high school.

Remember to take it one day at a time, one task at a time, and when it seems rough, and you want to give up...Hold on, it will get better, just hold on.

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They say the lord gives only what he believes we can handle,
I just wish he didn't trust me soo much. :'(