He has been doing better over the past few months. The tumor is shrinking due to chemo, he is in good spirits, and it doesn't look like it will be terminal.

That being said, with the 1 year date coming up soon, I keep replaying that day in my mind over and over and over. It was hands down the worst day of my life, and I keep seeing it.

I broke down a bit tonight while talking to one of my friends, and am still in break dwon mode now. I just can't seem to keep this day out of my head.

I know you and I haven't truly gotten to know one another on here, but I want to let you know that you can ALWAYS talk to me. I may not be able to help your situation, but I can listen. I'll always listen. I promise.

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There is beauty inside a woman who believes in herself;
who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to.
who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and move on.

My auntie was working normally 6 weeks ago, taking her two little kids to school and shopping for their food, cooking for them.

Now she's lay in a hospice bed dying, she won't see her next birthday, christmas, even MY birthday in August. She's getting no Radio, no Chemo because she's too weak for it.

She's leaving behind those children and her husband. She's 41.

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It's been three weeks since I had a decent sleep,
In an empty bed with a restless head,
These thoughts are killing me so...

If you need someone to talk to, you can PM me.

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Me break the rules? No,i test their elasticity.