When your life has fallen apart and the only outcome you see that is the best way out is to kill yourself, most people go for it. I know, I have tried it. I still want to try it again but I also have a bright future which I would screw up by doing so. It is hard to change your mind when you have it set on dying even if that is the worst way to go. I know for a fact that at times people do help but then they can also make it worse. What hope is there left when the mind is set and the rest of you is just waiting for one more thing to push you over the edge to give you a true reason for what you are going to do? I have no clue but that is what I am waiting for but I do not want that to happen. I want to be happy. I do not want the final straw to be pulled and I do something stupid. I know this is sort of point less but can any one help?
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I feel the exact same way as you do I'm just waiting for something to be the final straw, to really give me the motivation I need, yet part of me hopes that something doesn't happen. When I was little I remember I was learning how to dive and every time I tried I belly flopped and my brother would call me a chicken saying I was to afraid to go in head first. I kept trying and trying, something that looks so easy was just so hard. The truth is even though I told myself I wasn't afraid and constantly practiced somewhere deep down I was a little scared and there for I coud never do it. Thats the way I feel right now when I think about killing myself just like it sounds like you feel.
------- slice open my skin and watch the blood flow tears well up in my eyes, no one can know
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yeah...
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