You have no idea of the countless nights I stay up, thinking of you. Crying over what has ended between us. It has been a year already, but your embrace still feel as real as if it was yesterday. I need to forget, but with you toying with me doesn't help. I broke it off once. That is the only thing I do regret. I tried to fix it, but you were too busy. You stopped calling, seeing me, texting me, . . . you stopped loving me. I waited for 6 months for things to improve, I would be the first to text, call, make dates, but it seemed like you didn't care.

So, eventually I stopped. I stopped to prevent the heartbreak I would have had if you had done it first. Stopped before someone else would have the hardest time to pick up the billions of pieces of my heart that would have shattered. My heart broke anyways, not so much, but enough to where I regret doing so. I miss you so much My Handsome Husband, but you just had to forget me. It doesn't take more than a minute, to call and say you still care, that you still love me . . . that I am still yours.

Its all over now . . . I need to say goodbye forever more. I found someone who loves me, and I need to give them a chance.

Bye

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I am me when I show myself, but i wear a mask at times,
When I need to express myself, afraid of what he may say.