No need to read mine if you don't want to. I realize its long and rambling, just kind of thinking out loud here.
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My Story: When high school ended I was not in good shape mentally. I had developed increasingly bad social anxiety which had led to depression, which had strained my relationships with my friends at the time. Not that long after graduation, I had a falling out with most of them, and I really haven't talked to or had any real contact with them since. This is two years now.

I think the whole experience of being out in the cold, so to speak, really matured me, toughened me up. Suddenly, these people I'd known my whole life would have nothing to do with me, and it was all my fault. Suddenly I had no social connections, no real friends, after all that time, all that work. It got worse before it got better, but I did pull myself up, got through my mental/emotional problems for the most part and made a better life for myself.

Still, sometimes I think I should have made more of an effort to reconcile with them. I sometimes wonder that if I had just apologized for the whole thing, instead of basically disappearing on them, maybe I could have had some closure. I sometimes wonder if it would have made any difference at all. I ran into one of my old friends in a restaurant earlier this year, turned her back to me, wouldn't even look at me. I wonder if that connection, that network, would have supported me more through the last few years, as opposed to the lack of social connection turning me into the loner that I have become. But that has had its benefits, too, I think it made me grow up faster in a lot of ways.

My advice to you is to try and move on. There's not really much you can do about the whole closure thing if you can't contact them. By all means do it if you can, but if you can't, try and move on.

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Life starts now
Trust takes ages to build but only seconds to shatter
I wanna crawl back in

I transferred out of my public school at 15 and into a cyber school because I was bullied and the school was shit and I didn't want to take it anymore. By the time I graduated, I was a total mess. Took me quite a while to recover and I'm still not totally stable yet. ._.