Post edited at 5:40 am on July 2, 2009 by xIsabellex

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When I walk in the snow I want to leave no footprints

You should speak to them. It would be hard to do it on your own.

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the world was built on a tickle between our legs

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Sweetie, I know exactly how you're feeling with the whole control issue. I was anorexic for two years and I thought that I was in control, but I was ultimately completely out of control. Please, please, please, find someone that you trust and confide in them. It will be the best thing you ever do for yourself even if it seems difficult now. I am fully recovered and I am honestly in the best shape of my life...and I eat over 2000 calories a day. If you have anything you want to talk about or ask me please don't hesitate to PM me! I'd be happy to talk.

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This is good advice. See, you are not alone. She can help you out. I can also help you out. I'd be glad to talk to you in PM if you want. You will do it, you will succed. Never lose hope! Others have battled and won and so will you. Hope is never lost.

I know exactly how your feeling, by no means is this battle easy but think of your friend and your family and just keep going for their sake. Instead of realising your feelings onto paper, try something new. Perhaps you could take up photography, pottery or even drama. Any thing can work, it all depends on the person.

As for you control issues you can find another activity that has the same effect, maybe you could try creating a story? You have total control over characters life's. On that note you could even play the Sims. It's really up to you.

I wish you good luck. If you need any thing else or just want to talk feel free to PM me any time. :)

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Think.
Do.
Be.
Positive.

Seeing it dirty your body is something we can fix. When you're eating something, what do you eat? Is it some fast food concoction? or is it a healthy snack that is a major asset to your health? Either way, you need to get of the mindset, eating the right things provide nothing but a wealth of good for your insides.

You're seeing yourself control fade away? At this point for you, it shouldn't be about your control. You need health and seeing your life digest itself away is something your body is trying to prevent. If you want the control of back eat something, but, control yourself while doing so. Do not eat a mountain of food or eat so little you could burn off the calories in an hour.

It honestly hurts me to imagine someone is in that process of thought. When times seem that you're going to go down that road again, use your established support system do not fault to it and do yourself bad. Call your friend, file an eHelp, do anything but most importantly, eat something.

But if you ended it, obviously he wasn't the best.

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Marked, Betrayed, Chosen, Untamed and Hunted...