So, this past year, I've been through hell and back. I was hoping that summer break would help me clear my head, and rethink my approach to life. Because of last year, I had been depressed and angry to the point where it is hard to function. Getting therapy is not an option. Not because I don't want it to be, but for other reasons. That's not the point.

I made some goals this past summer, to slowly start reconstructing my life, and they all fell through, somehow. Somehow, despite my trying I was not able to achieve any of my goals.

So now, I'm going into my first year of college confused, mentally unstable, and with my confidence of my person at an all-time low. This is not what I wanted to happen.

I have tried to reconstruct my life myself, and I have prayed to God about it. Nothing is working.

I feel like this is just my slow dissent into madness/despair/loneliness and a horrible life. All my life, things have never really gone "right" for me, but they've also never gone this wrong.

Praying to God wont do anything. He isnt going to come down and fix your life for you. He can only help you if you are willing to put forth the effort to make your life better.

Post edited at 3:10 pm on July 9, 2009 by MushroomSatsujin

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And you, demon, what do you have faith in?
Nothing. I am so exquisitely empty

Life sucks and then you die.

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It is a blurred line that lies at the edge of Godhood and Insanity.
Guess which side of it I am on. Feeling lucky?

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Im not religious, but Im spiritual. I do not believe in God.

Praying to God wont do anything. He isnt going to come down and fix your life for you. He can only help you if you are willing to put forth the effort to make your life better.

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I have tried to help my self, and I don't know what else to do.

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Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 3:10 pm on July 9, 2009

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Im not religious, but Im spiritual. I do not believe in God.  

 Praying to God wont do anything. He isnt going to come down and fix your life for you. He can only help you if you are willing to put forth the effort to make your life better.

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I have tried to help my self, and I don't know what else to do.

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I am, and this is a rant. I'd prefer it if non-religious/athiests/etc. would refrain from posting negative comments about myself and/or my religion. Thank you.

 
So, this past year, I've been through hell and back. I was hoping that summer break would help me clear my head, and rethink my approach to life. Because of last year, I had been depressed and angry to the point where it is hard to function. Getting therapy is not an option. Not because I don't want it to be, but for other reasons. That's not the point.

I made some goals this past summer, to slowly start reconstructing my life, and they all fell through, somehow. Somehow, despite my trying I was not able to achieve any of my goals.

So now, I'm going into my first year of college confused, mentally unstable, and with my confidence of my person at an all-time low. This is not what I wanted to happen.

I have tried to reconstruct my life myself, and I have prayed to God about it. Nothing is working.  

I feel like this is just my slow dissent into madness/despair/loneliness and a horrible life. All my life, things have never really gone "right" for me, but they've also never gone this wrong.

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Instead of praying to god, try doing something that actually has a chance of working, like seeing a doctor.

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