Now im back, and im afraid im going to be stuck in a major depressive spiral. I woke up today and lied in bed for 3 hours thinking about what shes thinking and whether she wants me. Then the temptation grew too great so i checked the facebook walls of our mutual friends to see what she had said to them in the last month. Seeing her living her life depresses me deeply, yet im drawn to facebook stalk her or think about her 24/7. I feel like my life is a void and that i have nothing to fill it with except her.
I also have her fb password and am quite sure if i looked it would be the end of me (not literally), but sometimes the temptation and anxiety grows so great.

I need to fill my life, but jobs depress me and i dont really have any close friends.

About your ex specifically, obviously, you are not over her. If you are on good terms with her, I think you should talk to her and let her know how you feel. That may give you some closure you need. If you can't talk to her, you need to bear in mind and keep reminding yourself of whenever you think about her is this: "Our relationship is over." Don't try to think about how you can get back with her. Don't think about how she's getting on. Don't think about what she's saying to her friends. None of that matters to you. And you need to focus on getting yourself back up on your feet.

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