I am constantly disgusted with myself, and I've been really shy and whatever for my entire life. I make small advances but then fall on my face pretty rhythmically. Don't give me the whole work on your appearance do better in school lose weight etc thing, because I'm not paralyzed by my reflection in the mirror and I am attending an Ivy League school next fall. In terms of that kind of stuff, I feel pretty okay about myself. It's more that I just totally lack the ability to communicate in person. If I try talking to myself in a mirror the look in my eye disgusts me. I broke down at prom. I'm a mess. Then I go home and binge eat, and it's disgusting.
Point of this post: I am willing to kill myself to solve this self-esteem problem that's been screwing me over since 1991. What can I do? Like spend a month in the woods alone? Isn't that supposed to drastically change your life? Go to a camp that's for troubled teens? Although I don't have a drug problem or anything. Do acting classes? Do drugs? I NEED CHANGE.
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you can only change urself, killings not gunna change anything. Pm me if u want to talk
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ok well, im telling you this right now. the places you go for troubled teens are going to be hell for you. I have been there, and mental hospitals. message me if you want any help. ive been there and done all that.
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do something about it. Talk to someone understanding. Counsellor?doctor?parents?friends?relatives?kidshelpline?lw?
Try to change your lifestyle to make it better. If you can't do it alone, get someoen to help you
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Ever since I can remember. It's not like I was a confident toddler, but lost it. Even when I was two, I was intensely shy... you can tell my looking through family photos. I'm either not in any of the family shots or I'm crying and screaming because I am in them.
do something about it. Talk to someone understanding. Counsellor?doctor?parents?friends?relatives?kidshelpline?lw?
Try to change your lifestyle to make it better. If you can't do it alone, get someoen to help you
I've been wasting away on LW on-and-off for two years. I think at one point it was hurting more than helping. Oh, LW. I've seen different psychologists since I was 8. I have good friends that I can talk to, but at the end of the day, how I feel about myself is extremely alienating. I feel so alone and trapped within my own body, as I have such trouble communicating how I feel, unless it is in writing.
My lifestyle is healthy and "successful," aside from the overeating. But I don't gain weight, at least not yet.
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I'm doing an acting class for my self esteem problem
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I'm doing an acting class for my self esteem problem
How is that going? I tried that once and didn't make tons of progress, but maybe it was just a crappy class. It was more of a workshop without any real personal instruction.
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