I'm lonely and I don't have anyone I can share the way I feel about things with. It seems like everyone around me is always moving forward, and always has someone in their lives. It makes me envy them, and wish I wasn't me. It makes me wish that I was more outgoing in my past. It makes me wish I wasn't so antisocial in high school because if not, then maybe I would have friends now. I was inadvertently pushing people out of my life forever. Even when I bump into new people now, I still inadvertently push them away. Then in times like this, I wish so hard that I had done more to be closer with people.
So now I'm just trying to occupy myself, but I am running out of things to do. I wish someone would call my phone. Anyone.
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