So, for some time now I have been experiencing strange attractions toward being in a hospital. I have suffered depression for about 2.5 years, and I guess you could say that it has been in a sort of remission for several months now. The "obbsession" started when my depression started but is still continuing.  

I think about it most of the day, and have vivid visions or daydreams of being in the hospital. I'll be driving in the car and suddenly get a flash of an accident and see myself in an ambulence. At night I dream about it, and about being in a coma. Sometimes I die, and sometimes I wake up to see my friends and family in the room. I can even pinpoint it to the exact injuries that I obtain, and I wake up feeling pain in those areas.

It doesn't make any sense, and the weirdest part is that I have a strange sense that I kind of like the idea. It scares me sometimes, when I actually hope that it happens! Does anybody have any ideas as to what's going on, and do you have advice please?  

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Maybe because you stayed in them for your depression they've become a sort of sanctuary to you so that's why you're obsessing over them

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I would think so, but I've never been in the hospital for anything except sports injuries and sick family members. And both of those seem way different. Like, even with sports injuries, I go through the ER and see all kinds of people hurt way worse and I'm not happy, I wish it was me and not them... Even if I'm hurt bad, it's not enough.