I have what I originally thought to be anxiety disorder, but I'm not so sure now, what it is. I have panic attacks over really strange things. A lot of the time it's that my skin is dry and it's rubbing against something else that's dry and it bothers me. Sometimes it's that I think there's something wrong with something I have on me, clothes or the like, that they're ON wrong--this one time, in school, I had Ugg boots and I flipped out because the fur was peeling off of the bottoms and I panicked...couldn't breathe. I HAD to get the book off so I didn't ruin it more.
And right now, what it is is that I was running barefoot and I put my socks back on and my feet are all dirty. But one time it was that one toe was on top of the other toe and I thought there was something wrong with my foot. Weird, I know. A lot of it has to do with my feet. But it also is related to my hair. Like it'll be tangly and I won't be able to breathe until it's brushed out again.
I don't know...could this be OCD? Or some other kind of anxiety? I also have panic attacks about big things, but these are the things that on a day to day basis set me off.
I have spoken to my aunt, a psychologist, about my panic attacks, but not about what causes them that much, because I told her about the boots and she said I was catastrophising, and that I had to stop seeing small things as if they were bigger. Will this make or break my life? If not, then I have to stop worrying. But I CAN'T. The tiny things bug me so much. Idk what's wrong with me. :\