.I have been visiting them yearly since then, and now i am old enough i go up there on the train from london on my own.

now there is this one girl who i have known since 2001.her name is sarah. as i grew up, and went up there and i saw her a lot.

ever since a few years ago things have been strange.there have been a few things that have made me like her alot.

for example, once i was invited to her house to watch a film with her and her sister. i know that isnt much, but sarah was sitting quite close to me.

a couple of years later, i was helping a friend out up there in a field outside there house.now when i was walking to the field, she was not there. when i looked at her house later, she was there wearing a bikini.when i talked to her she had a smile on her face.

another time was when i was walking to another field and i bumped into her in the lane, i talked to her and she seemed cool and hot as usual. i walked back to my godparent's house. later, about 10 mins later, she was there again, walking down the lane. this time wearing make-up, when she was wearing normal clothes.so she couldnt have been going anywhere....

another thing was that i was invited into her house by her mum (im friends with most people in that family) to play the guitar. after a while it was just me and her after her mum and sister walked off. strange eh?

evey time i ask my god mum about whether sarah likes me or not she always says 'she's never said anything bad about you'.

now i know i like her because i have liked her for 4 years.she is the yardstick to how i find girls attractive.
all my friends know about her because i have been talking about her for god knows how long...

so i know that i really like her.the thing is that what is going to happen if all of this stuff that happened is just one bog coincidence?

and if i do see her this year, how am i going to actually talk to her? i mean what if she does like me? and she has been thinking about me for 2 years?

i mean i have no idea whether she does or not.

seriously someone help me.this is not normal for me, i always get over girls so quickly.

It might sound difficult, but I kid you not it's so easy and you'll realize it afterwards. Just when you two are hanging out, just blurt it out. "So, I've got a bit of a secret" "Oh, what's that?" "I've kind of had a thing for you for a while" And take it from there. And as for this not being normal for you, it could be you wanting something that seems unreachable, I would hope that's not the case though. Another explanation is maybe you just subconsciously see her as a perfect match for you.

Now let's say she admits to having a thing for you to. Just have fun together, enjoy being close and intimate if you want. But if you want a relationship out of this instead of just getting together when you see eachother, discuss maybe going up to see eachother(if she can come see you) to try and establish some sort of long distance relationship. Don't be intimidated by that idea, they do have a fair chance of working out, believe me I've seen it. As long as you're committed anyway. But yeah, talk about you going up to see her and vice versa, keep in constant contact, hell write a letter, that can sometimes be quite romantic :P

Anyway, I have no idea if you want to pursue a relationship out of this, I just assumed you would and thought I'd touch base on it a bit just incase. If I missed anything or you want to talk/ask about anything else, please by all means let me know so I can help you out :)

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