Well two and a half years later, I'm doubting my initial assessment of him. I think he's just like everyone else, that he, too, has negative intentions at times. Take, for example, when we broke up. I still wanted him so badly so I kept flirting with him. Mid-flirt...mind you, he was flirting back too...he mentions another girl. We were joking about sex and how we were loud the first time we met and I said that the girl next door probably heard. Somehow we went from that to him saying "I could have had her".

He knew this was a girl I didn't like, she was really suspicious. She was outgoing and flirty with him and when he said she'd be nice to me too, she just sort of ignored me. So his comment really bothered me and I asked, "Do you really want me to ask her if she wanted to have sex with you?" He became angry and logged offline.

Later he claimed that he only said it to make himself feel better. That he was feeling insecure over the breakup even though we were flirting and that he would never try to hurt me on purpose because that wouldn't make him feel good. The thing is -- when we broke up, I yelled at him. He crossed a line (not important what he did) and when I caught him, I called him and yelled at him and people were there and so he said he felt embarrassed even if he was in the wrong (which he didn't admit until later).

So I was thinking okay...I yelled at him...he's pissed off with me...he knows I hate that girl...he did it to take a swipe at me. But to this day, he insists that he's never done or said anything to hurt me when I can think of other weird statements he's made after a fight.

Do you really think someone could be that pure? Because I get the feeling that he refuses to admit it because doing so would be admitting that he has a dark side just like me and just like everyone else.

Some people aren't comfortable with admitting that they were wrong, because it too is another emotion, of self-perfection.

I do think you are right that he isn't admitting it. But maybe the way he sees it though, it was not to hurt you, but to help him feel better.

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Maybe I'm a dreamer; Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy; Maybe I'm the only one
Maybe I'm just out of touch, maybe I've just had enough

You've got to accept him for how you see him now and if you can't then I don't see where all of this lies. Yes, he may have hurt you in your eyes but he may see it a different way. There are after all two sides to every story. Perhaps you need to talk to him about this, tell him why he made you feel bad and why you want to move on from that. There's no point holding a grudge over something like this because the realisation of what is real in life isn't worth it.

Everybody has good and everybody has bad. It doesn't change who they are.

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They are the Kings. They are the Queens.
They write the history of the kingdom
and I am something of a devoted Jester.