Ugh I just want to talk to him... -- LiveWire Teen Forums

Basically, over the past couple years I've built up this wall, to keep people out. i have good friends, but I still keep a big part of myself from them. I have self-esteem issues, but I never really talk about any of it. and Friday i was talking to this guy that i don't really know that well and I was all fucked up so that wall didn't exist. and I told him stuff that I don't tell anyone. Like stuff about being a horrible person and how much I hate myself nd stuff about feeling like no one loves me and idk. just stuff that I think about, but have never said to anyone.
and right now, I just feel like crying, in fact, I am a little.
anyway, since Friday, we've kind of built that wall back up. He made me mad, then he ignored my text, and other stuff has made me more refined with everyone the past couple days.
So, what I'm trying to get at is, I want to talk to him, I just want to call him and tell him all this stuff that's bothering me... but I feel like I can't because I don't have the whole "I smoked and drank and now I don't know what's happening to me and i didn't know who else to call because no one knows that do drugs except 3 of my friends, you ad bill's other friends, and I'm going to go into an over emotional rant about myself now."
So I feel like it'd be awkward and annoying if i did, even though I have old him more than I've told even my best friend and I know he'd understand that.

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