So...how do I stop it hurting? How do I make it go away? I wish a lot that she loved me like her baby, but obviously she doesn't. I also wish a lot that she would hug me..but that would only make it worse-she doesn't exactly share my views on a LOT of things..and that is why it hurts so much that she took my one little name away from me. :( And you know what, it's not bothering her at all. It's ok for her with a baby. She has family and friends. Well, it's not ok for me. I cry at night over this. It makes me feel lonly and cold and..empty. :(

I had an idea of going on bebo, with a better nickname. Yes, I've made up another nickname. It makes me feel a good bit better, but I still can't just get over this. But the thing is, I think that going back on bebo is absolutely the wrong choice, not to mention immature. She doesn't care. Ok, so I am gifted with words. I could probably reel her in. But I think it's wrong, immature and pointless. Why add fuel, when she doesn't give half a damn about me. I think it's better just to leave it completely alone-with my dignity intact. On the other hand, wouldn't it be nice to re-affirm my identity, to express myself online again? Maybe it would make me feel secure, but I think that's absolutely wrong-the internet is not designed to give you personal security!..and I'd only make it worse. So idk what to do..I keep making loads of bebos and then deleting them. Ughhh this is annoying. Can anyone give me any advice?? I just want to make this whole thing go away..and to be secure in mySELF again. :(

The best thing that you could do is to try and ignore it. Try to find better friends who love you for who you are, and perhaps instead of going by your nickname (since it'll remind you of her) try going by your actual name. She didn't take anything away from you, you still have your name right?

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Soulless is everywhere, destroy the spineless.