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20 years old and I feel like I just want to smash it all. Fuck. It's like it's never ending. One thing after another.
"I felt like putting a bullet in the head of every panda that wouldn't screw to save it's own species."
This is the first day of my last days. I built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down real far. no need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away. I put my faith in god and my trust in you, now there's nothing more fucked up i could do.
I'm the one without a soul i'm the one with this big fucking hole. No new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to hell. Gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck. Don't think you're having all the fun, you know me i hate everyone.
I want to but i can't turn back but i want to
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What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams? And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I sit here and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin I make the right moves but I'm lost within I put on my daily facade but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself
I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself
I cant hold on To what I want, when I'm stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I Turn my back I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll Take from me till everything is gone If I let them go I'll be outdone But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun If Im killed by the questions like a cancer Then Ill be buried in the silence of the answer by myself
How do you think Ive lost so much Im so afraid that Im out of touch How do you expect... I will know what to do When all I know Is what you tell me to
Dont you know I can't tell you how to make it go No matter what I do, how hard I try I cant seem to convince myself why I'm stuck on the outside
------- If I could start again A million miles away. I would keep myself I would find a way.
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I like the panda quote, whassup guy?
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I'd be happy to respond but I'm going to need more to go off of than a Fight Club quote and song lyrics. I mean I get that you're pissed off and down but a bit of background would probably help.
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Both brilliant songs and love the quote from Fight Club.
What's wrong, man?
It just seems like there is always a problem. Always something wrong. Whether is emotional pain, financial, or just plain grey cloud over my head. Every day seems like a repeat of the last, week of before, different day, same shit.
I know everything takes time. I guess I am impatient.
------- If I could start again A million miles away. I would keep myself I would find a way.
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Both brilliant songs and love the quote from Fight Club.
What's wrong, man?
It just seems like there is always a problem. Always something wrong. Whether is emotional pain, financial, or just plain grey cloud over my head. Every day seems like a repeat of the last, week of before, different day, same shit.
I know everything takes time. I guess I am impatient.
I know exactly how you feel.
Today I finally moved past losing my best friend, only to be shot down by the girl I like because "it'd be too weird" for her.
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