FYI, today was the worst day of my fucking life. just so you know.  

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dude ive never had a girlfriend and im 20

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no, but you didn't revive the kind of treatment i bet . I Have felt excluded before, or rejected, or looked down upon. but  it wasn't until today that i just felt completely ...... unwanted .... the first time i thought i would be better off dead. And it's annoying because the two things I want more than anything else in the world are completely contradictory. I really want companionship, someone to love. and I also want to just be ALONE and not have to fucking deal will all of these people and worry about all my responsibilities and worries. I think if i could, i would find the one person i love, and steal her away to some remote deserted island, where We'd live our entire lives in solitude. because that would be heaven, to be completely alone except for the one person i actually wanted to be with. seriously though, Fuck the world, and fuck Katherine   she's this girl in one of my school clubs, and she's a total bitch. fuck her.

anyway im sorry, you can stop listening to me now i'm just blowing off steam.

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I sowwy

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thanks.  

Looks take you but so far in a man's world.

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May I never be complete. May I never be content. May I never be perfect.

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Take a deep breath. Everything is going to be ok.

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But that's the best things ever get is okay, things are never good or great. nothing is ever good or great. and i doubt that they ever will be at this point.

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I'm sure not every girl can't stand to be 10 ft from you. It's all in your head man. I'm willing to bet my nipples the ugliest men get laid the most. Hell, I know the ugliest men get laid the most.

Looks take you but so far in a man's world.

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then it's my voice, or behavior or breath or something else, but i am just totally unwanted..... oh and by the way, I have proof that you're wrong. because im pretty sure this guy died a virgin.

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Quote: from Jazzy Jeff at 10:40 pm on Nov. 10, 2009

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I'm sure not every girl can't stand to be 10 ft from you. It's all in your head man. I'm willing to bet my nipples the ugliest men get laid the most. Hell, I know the ugliest men get laid the most.  

 Looks take you but so far in a man's world.

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then it's my voice, or behavior or breath or something else, but i am just totally unwanted..... oh and by the way, I have proof that you're wrong. because im pretty sure this guy died a virgin.  

 

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I said ugly not morbidly deformed, my dude.

Is that thing...human?

How many girls have you even hit on in your entire life? And when I say hit on I mean actually attempt to isolate alone and make a move or get a number. Not casually walk up and say "Hi, nice weather".

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May I never be complete. May I never be content. May I never be perfect.

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Trust me. Girls are more lenient when it comes to how a guy looks. Treat a girl right, and you'll have a lot more options when it comes to girls. Just don't focus your attention only on hot girls. You know what it's like, so make sure you treat the average looking girls just the same.

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At this point, I treat everyone the same, scornfully. maybe not on the outside, but on the inside. no matter how i act on the outside, I've come to the point where i automatically hate everyone else from the second i meet them. sometimes i can pin a reason to it, sometimes i don't even know why, i just assume they are like the others.