Is a public vote! Which one is best?
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#1:
Pacing around these putrid halls, worrying about what would be next. Consumed by hatred, mocked by fear. Inability to sit here and listen to those words once more, to allow them to hurt me one more time. I can't take it, I never could. You come home screaming and yelling. It's all my fault, it always has been. Nothing will change, nothing will budge. In the end, it's who I am. The trouble-starting, ignorant teenager. You're right. I'm full of hatred and stupidity, and I should just go die in a corner. It's fun being your mindless puppet, it's fun watching me squirm isn't it? The time has come to rise against, to allow myself to show you who I really am. It may not be worth it, but I'm tired of crawling through my labyrinth of misery and sorrow. It's all my fault.
Next time you yell and scream, I'll be there to fight back.
I'm a complete waste of space and life, I should just clear the earth and make room for someone who has potential now shouldn't I. Very encouraging words, really hits the spot. You know, the one which you've always been able to pick out and the one which has always been my weakness. I've never done anything but bring in the problems of your lifetime. I've caused your stress, I've caused you to lose your job, and I've caused you to develop alcoholism. It's all my fault.
Scream at me one more time. Let me allow these words to echo through my very veins, to break me down before your power once more. Scream like you've never screamed before. Terrify me towards the road to nonexistance Show me the way, and I'll gladly take it. You know that I only have one more step to take, you know the issues which follow. No, your animosity is keeping me alive. I have to keep you in check and show that you're not as high and mighty as you think you are. Yet, I can't. I can't honestly do it. Take in the pain which comes from it, nothing seems possible anymore. Why? It's all my fault
Next time you yell and scream, I'll be there to fight back.
Of course, that was all a lie. That very night you awoken me from my sleep shrieking about how you've never been the same since mom died. You know what, I totally hired the person to come and kill her. In fact, I pulled the trigger to her existence. I wanted her gone, out of my life. Much like you. Perhaps I shouldn't have said that, perhaps you shouldn't be so dimwitted to understand sarcasm. Learn some self discipline, rather than lets go yell in your sons face because of what we choose to let get to us. That was it, I couldn't take it anymore. It's all my fault.
My escape, well, lets just say I decided to go for a drive. Fresh air, good music, perhaps just sleep on the side of the road and let things calm down. It's worked in the past, and certainly won't fail me in the future. Grab the keys and go. So I did, I just left. The normal quaint spot as usual, nothing so satisfactory, eerie in the dim of the night. The moon barely shining in my window. Something sparked in me, something new and strange. Why? I didn't quite know, but I needed to go back. I needed to, just because. It's all my fault.
The thing is that night I died. Not only had I been dying inch by inch every day, not only had I been suffering from depression and self-guilt, but that night was a breaking point. I wasn't calm like it said in the newspaper, I was outraged. Driving crazily and unsure of myself. I got into an car accident. I'll never know if it was my fault or not, but for some reason I'll never forgive it all. What I hate about it is that he stayed alive. It felt like he purposely drove me off the cliff, and that he purposely made sure I'd never come back. Thanks dad, my misery is complete. You've made my day, because in fact, it's all my fault.
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#2:
Help,
The life inside me is fading,
The death around me,
So sad and embracing.
Help,
I can't go on much further,
The past is gloomy, Future...
Not so upbeat.
Help,
I can't go on, the life
Is gloomy, Future
So sad and embracing....
Help,
My mind is fluttered,
With everyday decisions,
Uncertainty beating my every decision.
Help,
My brain indecisive,
Which path to take,
Do I go left, or do I go right?
Help,
Tonight is the night,
To make a decision,
Which will set my life,
For ever its own.
Don't Help Me,
I don't want it.
You put on a smirk smile and
Act like you care
Don't Help Me,
I don't want your pity,
The superficial attitude
of superiority
Don't Help Me
Just get away
and stop helping me
dig my own grave.
Don't Help Me,
I don't want it
I don't want it
I don't want it
Don't Help Me,
You could care less,
You never cared one bit,
So why start now?
Don't Help Me,
I'm tired of trying too hard
Giving up everything
To please you
Don't Help Me
I've already lost myself
Lost myself to everything
and anything
Don't Help Me
Instead just laugh
laugh once more
at everything I do
Help
I can't go on much longer
Your presence...
Suffocation.
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#3:
I screamed the words they echoed through my head
I didn't see a reason to get up out of bed
CHORUS:
Living, just keep living it's all that we can do
Living, just keep living until our lives are through
I was so crazy I didn't know what to do
All I saw was the crowd I didn't know who was who
CHORUS
People screaming help me what could I do?
Who could help to start they're life anew?
CHORUS
Ill guess I'll keep on walking I guess I'll just ignore
The dying the helpless and the poor
CHORUS
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