But lately, random regrets and bad memories are flooding me without stopping...my experiences as of late have been negative, and coming at me so hard and so fast that...

...Christ, I'm falling apart...I used to pride myself in my willpower, and my self-control, and my patience...now I've fallen somewhere between a deeply rooted sense of guilt and a reminder of the mistakes I've made.

I'm not used to being so weak...so...vunerable...I don't know how to handle my emotions because I've practically ignored them for years dealing with everyone else's problems...just...someone please tell me what to do...

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On the old trail
they lay dead.

We're all flooded with regrets at times and since none of us can escape them, there are ways to deal with them. Realize that the past is the past, what's done is done and that in some cases you can't change things. You can always heal old wounds/old relationships but sometimes it's better to move on and get through your life and learn from those mistakes, rather than dwelling on them and never realizing the lessons one can find in them.

We all have our weak moments, but thankfully there are others who've been through that who can help you.

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pressure becomes real only the moment we acknowledge that it can affect us