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Since I've been in college, I've noticed I've developed some trust issues. Being forced to associate with new people has really taken a toll on me emotionally. I feel like most of the girls are CPs. Or lying to my face, or trying to get with the guy I want. And speaking of guys I want, there aren't very many. But it seems like when one does come along that gives me a little glimmer of hope, I can't accept it. I assume there is somethin wrong with him SOMEHOW. Or that he's just talking to me to be nice. Or maybe he wants some easy ass, which is usually the case. I know how all of this negative energy came about, and I'm stupid for letting it get this bad. 2 years of putting up with him. With tending to his every want and need and getting NOTHING in return. Absolutely nothing. And why? To have a few moment where I wasn't so lonely all the time? Ha. He doesn't even really like me, you know? The past 2 years existed because he needed to be satiated whenever and however he wanted. Food? I bought it. Gas? I drove him. Company? Whenever I could. Sex? Ha. Love? .. I offered it. But I guess tough boys don't need love, right? Hmph. Well thank you, TC. You've ruined my life. And for what? lol It all seems so dumb now. I don't think he'll ever realize what he does and how it affects others... I hung out with someone the other day.. The first guy since him. And the fact that he actually asked me over to hang out, and actually hung out, blew my mind. Honestly, I didn't know how to act. I'm sure I looked pretty awkward. But it was a good awkward.. I think. The kind of awkward you're supposed to have when you first meet someone. The kind of awkwardness I think I'd forgotten about. It physically hurts to want to like him. Or anyone for that matter. I am so afraid, and I don't know why. lol I laugh because I find it funny... I meet people, and the first think I think of is, "How much will it hurt when they say they don't want me anymore?"
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11:10 pm on Nov. 4, 2009 | Joined: Feb. 2005 | Days Active: 446
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let it out dear, let it all out
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Quote: from The Shit at 11:11 pm on Nov. 4, 2009
 let it out dear, let it all out
I'm trying..
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11:12 pm on Nov. 4, 2009 | Joined: Feb. 2005 | Days Active: 446
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I see someone's venting?
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Quote: from SomeRandomKid at 11:19 pm on Nov. 4, 2009
I see someone's venting?
Yes.
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Unfortunately this is the way of the world.
I grew up not trusting anyone never in my life have I been able to say I really trust you. There is always some thing.. some reason, some problem, just something that makes me think "this person is lying to me" and the sad part is I am usually right. People don't always lie, and I go into a friendship hoping they don't, but somewhere along the way red flags pop up in my mind... Like I am WAITING for something to be wrong with that person. And I really hate it half the time, and love it others.. I don't get hurt as much as I would.. just.. I don't know... Just get out of that relationship if you have not already.
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