This girl that i have known for 8 years before i got here to where i am(she lives here too) I met her through my brother she called me the other day asking for money. I'm like sorry but i don't have money and the money i do have rarely do i get to spend it i buy shit for the house pay bills shit like that. Then when i want to buy something my mom is like well next month i promise then the next month comes sorry we have to start saving money then she fucking goes and gets a tattoo that's $300 it's crazy how things work right?

My best friend don't ever talk to me unless something goes on with her and her girlfriend. It's stupid really i am sick of this fucking shit i mean fuck most you girls fucking care about money and shit like that. Fucking go live on the streets for a few fucking years then tell me how you like it. It's fucking stupid how things work. I mean okay your going to be a cunt to me fuck you then. it's stupid so fucking stupid. I mean really is this how you are going to treat me? Even though i do everything.

Most people care about money. I don't really i could care less yeah it's nice and shit but it makes the world crazy. Wounder why people steal and shit. Fucking government is  making everything go up and you want to know the fucking kicker of  it? They increase their pay check to more. If anything they are in a fucking office all day why do they need to make that much? People who bust their ass that have kids and shit they need money not some fucking government official fucking pieces of shit anyways if you ask me.

But anyways that's not the fucking point the point is here i am stressing on this shit then my mom goes and pulls her shit and then my dad and just everyone and everything around me is bugging me. It's fucking stupid. Fuck learn a thing called Independence then come talk to me about your fucking problems then i'll take a fucking listen if not then fuck you stupid cunt. I don't need your problems weighted on my shoulders as i do anyways but who the fuck cares about me? Then man that does everything.

No one that's who.

It sometimes feels like this sick game, when you're stuck in the middle.  This stupid sick game where everyone secretly gets together, teams up and decides that they're going to specifically make your day as shitty as possible.  And although it's not that...in the end it's really just the result of the vast majority of people paying no attention to the lives of anyone but themselves.

I don't know what to say to you that's going to change that.  I can't fix your family.  I can't fix your friends.  I can tell you that it doesn't last forever....this stupid thing you're in.  Life changes, things shift around, you get opportunities to surround yourself with more worthwhile people that actually give two shits.  Yeah it sucks waiting for that to come...and to that I don't know what to tell you.

Just that I understand, I suppose.

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Yeah here's my thing about people as a whole...we generally seem to be stuck in this "autodrive mode" where we kind of just plunge through life, working out things for ourselves, expecting things to come to us, and expecting others to rise up to our expectations for humanity. I use "we" as a collective term for a portion of society that feels pretty effing big.

It sometimes feels like this sick game, when you're stuck in the middle. This stupid sick game where everyone secretly gets together, teams up and decides that they're going to specifically make your day as shitty as possible. And although it's not that...in the end it's really just the result of the vast majority of people paying no attention to the lives of anyone but themselves.

I don't know what to say to you that's going to change that. I can't fix your family. I can't fix your friends. I can tell you that it doesn't last forever....this stupid thing you're in. Life changes, things shift around, you get opportunities to surround yourself with more worthwhile people that actually give two shits. Yeah it sucks waiting for that to come...and to that I don't know what to tell you.

Just that I understand, I suppose.

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Idk what to say about your mother tripping with the cash. Do you have  a job of your own? I don't usually advise this but hold onto YOUR money. Your mom seems like the type that tries to impart responsibility but can't set the example. Try to get her to own up to the responsiblity she has as being YOUR mother. I mean if you're paying the bills dude she should listen to YOU. You're paying for the roof over her head, let her complain and if she does tell her she can pay the bills like she's suppose to

I see another similarity we had. I had a friend like this who'd only talk to me when they had problems but were straight ghosts when I needed help. This kind of thing is something you should look out for when you got so called "friends"

I know with the way your situation it is it seems like no one cares but you can always find someone who cares here. I don't know how much that means to you but it's something right?

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Hey man, I know how you feel about being frustrated with bs "friends". You seem like you've been taken advantage of to an absurd point by people who really don't now how good they've got it to have someone to listen to their problems when the least they could do is be there for you yet they can't do that. Only mistake is you call them "friends" still. Those aren't really friends if they feel you're the asshole for being nice. I know it's tough to let go of the thought that you guys were friends hopefully they'll stop dicking me over but if they keep continuing you're better off moving on,which you should do. You don't need a lot of friends in life but you'll meet a lot, trust me on that.  

Idk what to say about your mother tripping with the cash. Do you have a job of your own? I don't usually advise this but hold onto YOUR money. Your mom seems like the type that tries to impart responsibility but can't set the example. Try to get her to own up to the responsiblity she has as being YOUR mother. I mean if you're paying the bills dude she should listen to YOU. You're paying for the roof over her head, let her complain and if she does tell her she can pay the bills like she's suppose to

I see another similarity we had. I had a friend like this who'd only talk to me when they had problems but were straight ghosts when I needed help. This kind of thing is something you should look out for when you got so called "friends"

I know with the way your situation it is it seems like no one cares but you can always find someone who cares here. I don't know how much that means to you but it's something right?

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How come you don't get ANY money to yourself? that's kind of weird

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Quote: from SpRiNgS at 3:23 am on Nov. 9, 2009

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How come you don't get ANY money to yourself? that's kind of weird

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I try and help my family the best that i can.

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Quote: from Anonymous at 2:33 am on Nov. 9, 2009

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Quote: from SpRiNgS at 3:23 am on Nov. 9, 2009

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How come you don't get ANY money to yourself? that's kind of weird

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I try and help my family the best that i can.

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oooooh I thought you like, got stiffed out of some spending money. Hopefully once your mom gets settled down you could have her help you out with that. what does your dad do?

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oh divorce?

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Quote: from SpRiNgS at 3:40 am on Nov. 9, 2009

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oh divorce?

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Nopw married but seeing other people. It's wired.

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Quote: from Anonymous at 2:44 am on Nov. 9, 2009

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Quote: from SpRiNgS at 3:40 am on Nov. 9, 2009

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oh divorce?

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Nopw married but seeing other people. It's wired.

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hmm sounds kind of odd. Does your dad whenever you visit him help you out in anyway or is he busy trying to get with other people>?

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aww man that sucks the stubborn pride thing. You think you'd eve rget a chance to be able to save a bit of your cash?

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