Story (I'll try to be brief): Met a guy.  Instant attraction... we talked some more, off and on, and I began to like him more and more.  Not only was I into it, it genuinely seemed, for the first time ever, that those feelings were returned.  I was convinced that, at 20 years old, I'd finally found my first boyfriend.

I talked to one of his close friends (who's gay), and he said otherwise.  I was pretty torn up, so I decided to find out for myself.  I sat my guy down, laid everything out, and sure enough... denied.  Straight as an arrow (according to him).  I was a train wreck.  We're talking a good 3 days of constant breakdowns and hating life.

Here's where it gets tricky.  He's such an amazing dude, he still wants to be good friends.  A few nights ago, he even told me I was his best friend.

I want to be his friend.  I really do.  But I also want more than that... and whenever I'm around him, it's always at the back of my mind that maybe there's some glimmer of hope for me yet.

This ultimately ends with me crying in my bed, hurt and frustrated... emotionally exhausted.  But I'm still at his mercy... I'd do anything for him.

In all fairness, though he isn't obvious, based on his personality/style/refusal to get with girls, most people actually do think he's gay.  Part of me is hanging around just in hopes that he'll realize it one day and jump into my arms.  Ha.

Anyone been here before?

but remember life always goes on trust me....one day youll look up and there youll find ure prince charming. With his chocolate brown eyes, a smile that could melt the sun and lips as succulent as sugar.

trust me..itll happen...

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i dont know what to say....neh just kidding, i do

I understand the feeling, and I've definitely been there.. It feels like crap when you really like someone, and they don't feel the same.

I know it's hard, but he seems like a really nice guy, regardless of the fact that he doesn't want a romantic relationship. If you're able to come to terms with not being a couple, I'd definitely say you shouldn't give up on your friendship. Nice guys, whether it be in terms of boyfriends or friends, are not always easy to come by, and it definitely sounds like you found someone who does genuinely care about you.

If he puts off a gay vibe, maybe he IS gay, but just in denial?  

Anyway, seriously hun, it will get better. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but you'll find your "perfect" guy. Just give it some time.  

Feel free to PM me if I can be any help or if you just need someone to vent to.

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CrackerJax
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regaurdless though, if someone makes you hurt more than happy, move on.

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My world is spinning yet i smile because small fingers tickle my tummy.