So I finally confide in my boyfriend of the things I'm feeling, like the fact that I feel no reason to exist because everything is going wrong and I'm just exahusted of everything. He goes and yells at me and tells me I'm selfish and am stupid for thinking that.

I was really hurt by this because I don't need him to be right, I just needed him to be there for me when I'm upset...I guess that's selfish to just want him to comfort me and try to make me feel better?

The fact that he yells at you for saying you have no reason to exist is probably just because he cares about you and doesn't want you to think negatively. The fact is that you DO need him to be "right" there, because thinking that you're worthless is the most unhealthy thing you can possibly do.

Just give it some time, and your situation will improve. It's an adjustment period.

Post edited at 10:36 am on Nov. 9, 2009 by mbs55

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what i would do is just give him time to calm down n think things through and then mayb go and talk to him again about it Plus he may not known anyone tht feels like this before so doesnt know how to react so give him time

and you werent being selfish thats all we all want when we are feeling down is to be comferted and told every thing will be ok

Is it selfish?  Who knows... I could argue that your boyfriend was being selfish for yelling at you because he doesn't want YOU to be selfish.  What's the point in pointing fingers?  We all want to be happy... so what's wrong with having problems and needing help?  I would think nothing.

So putting aside whether or not you're being selfish, I think the point is that you're having a hard time.  He may not have dealt with something like this before, and so he doesn't know how to respond.  I think the best thing that you can do is, when you feel ready, explain to him.  Tell him that you're going through a hard time, you just wanted his support in helping you through all this, and that yelling doesn't solve anything.  Honestly, his yelling has most likely made you worse, because it only furthers the feeling that you're not necessary in this world...

I think you have a right to be upset.  There's nothing wrong with that... it's ok to be sad and need a helping hand, and sometimes... we get hurt by opening up.  It happens... but you just need to realize that YOU're trying your best, and you're doing what you can.  If you do that, then no one can expect any more from you.

It's tough to deal with, especially with all the changes in your life.  As others have said, you may be experiencing depression, and that can take over your world, and you depreciate yourself... give yourself time.  Hopefully things will look up.  Since you're in college, consider looking into the counsellors that they have there... it may help you out a great deal.