I was talking with a 17 years old woman on Omegle.com and along the course of the conversation she pointed out of being sexually abused in the course of several years by her older cousin ever since she was 7 years old and that he only stopped ones she moved away
I suggested a link between this childhood abuse and of her becoming lesbian later in the course of her life
I asked whether she admitted it later to any of her family and friends and she answered that she did so indeed but that he never got in trouble for it and that no one even said a word about it to him
it got me incredibly mad and I was about to say this but then I accidental clicked the disconnect button
and when I realized what just happened I got even angrier on myself then on her cousin
I was afraid that I disconnected on purpose because I didn't wanted to talk to her or because I thought that she "shall just deal with her problems alone and not complain about them to other people"  
this of course made me feel extremely uncomfortable and ones I calmed down a bit followed by me grabbing a pair of nail-scissors and starting to cut myself as I sometimes do when being very angry at myself
I almost got caught this time...it isn't the point though
the point is - is there anything else I can do to make myself feel better?
surely there are almost 3,000 users online now in Omegle I would certainly not be able to come across her ones again and even if I will I would not know how to identify her  

I feel sooooo...bad X___X I feel like a total jerk and a God-damn douche
this event probably won't let me sleep calmly for the next week or two

Post edited at 4:33 pm on Nov. 9, 2009 by volhv

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No need to cut yourself over it. She probably just thought your internet got disconnected or something.

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Well it's not something extraordinary
I started cutting recenly on a regular basis to help myself cope with subconcious feelings of shame

But the problem was that I felt very sorry for her it sounded like it was very traumising to her (and as I suggested - probably the thing which lead to her becoming a lesbian) I really wanted to hear what she can say about it and see if I can help anyhow
I guess I was hoping that we might talk later if I'll ask her e-mail address or ICQ account or whatever but I didn't do this
and I was very angry at the moment I accidently clicked the "Disconnect" button because I got pissed about him getting away with it so easily  
and damn I mean - she never told anyone because she felt guilty
and he only stopped because she moved away when wshe was 14 >=O this sucks so fucking much!

Post edited at 4:33 pm on Nov. 9, 2009 by volhv