I want to go away from here. I want to go where no one will find me. I want to disappear. :(
Life seems going in a downward spiral and frankly, I don't want it to stop until it reaches the bottom. I miss my cat every single day and every single minute I spend at home. He was my baby, my child, the only one who kept me sane. I didn't think I'd miss him this much. I want to run away from home and never come back. I can't stand being here any longer. I keep imagining he'll jump into bed with me to sleep or run around making messes.
I've also lost one of my best friends...and I don't know why. Doesn't answer my calls and won't give me an explanation.
Drugs don't even help me feel good anymore. And coming from me, that's a lot to say. Cutting isn't helping either. I don't know what the fuck to do with my life.
Post edited at 11:42 am on Nov. 6, 2009 by wOlF
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