I had gotten up to 520 calories already today, but then threw up once, so now I'm back down to 490. My parents do not know about my relapse this time, and they're thinking that I'm getting better. My nutritionist is going to kill me tomorrow. I'm probably not even going to tell her. Even though I know lying isn't ever going to get me to recovery.

I'm going to have to find a way out of this eventually.

don't lie about anything either because you're right, that's not going to help you with your recovery..

try looking at food differently, and not that it's gross and going to make you fat, but that it's good for you and it's going to make you healthy.

you're beautiful, and i admire your strength. (:

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let the beauty of what you love be what you do (:

If you tell her she'll know its perfectly normal to relapse and she'll be able to give you some helpful words and advice. They can't help you if you aren't honest with them.

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Life... It is a tale, told by an idiot,
full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.