Tonight was awesome and then really shitty and then awesome again. But when it was shitty, it was SHITTY.
I don't know if this is the start of an unhealthy relationship or if that was just a learning experience and that in time we will come to understand one another and instances like tonight will not happen again.
I was going to end it tonight because I don't want to get too involved in something that could potentially be very bad for me emotionally, but then we made up and then he was amazing again. We have a lot of fun when we're happy.
Just venting.
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god dammit.