So, I started school out here in California, a week or so in I met these two guys, one from New Jersey, who was amazingly nice to me, and another kid, a guy from Colorado (who bears a striking resemblence to a kid I knew back at home but thats another story) they were both really amazing to be with. And as soon as I knew it, I was starting to like the guy from Colorado (oh, and his name is Josh). He was really nice to me. He would walk me back to my dorm, gave me massages, etc. He was a generally happy person and always was there for me when I needed him. I came to caring about him and he cared about me. He was worried about me alot. I thought it was kinda cute but it kind of got annoying afterwards. Then, Josh told me his whole back story. He told me how he is a self-loathing scumbag/douchebag person. He told me how his mother is bipolar and all. He puts himself down. He really rolled out all of his issues right infront of me, and I didnt know what to do. He seemed okay afterwards. Later that day, we were hanging out with some of his friends, we were playing random games and red rover. Josh had his own team and one of the friends had their own team Josh had first choice to pick a friend. He picked ME over his friend that he knew waay more than I have known him. When I fell down, he immediately was worried about me and cared if I was okay or not. Typical overbearingly caring stuff.

Then, came time that he told me that he really didnt think of me as a potential partner, he said the only reason was that "we dont click". I accepted that. He, on the other hand, had more of an issue than I did. I told him that, in the past, I was suicidal(I'm not now) and my entire past. He was soo upset, he started breaking down and almost came to the verge of crying. And then he left me.  

Following day, I ran into him while he was doing a photo thingie for a potential job. I tried to tell him what to do and where to go, he wouldnt listen to me at all. Instead he listened to this other chick. I was soo pissed off at him. He then walked down the street causing a scene. He started yelling profanity about the whole potential job. I told him, "Calm down, People are looking at you!" and he fired back saying "I dont f**king care about them looking at me!". I walked him to the place so he can catch the train to where he needed to go. He thanked me about 50 times and then left.

At dinner, it didnt go too well with the potential job. He then told me the most scariest thing, "If you die, I would have nothing left to live for." I was shocked. I asked him "why?" and he responded, "Because I would be responsible for you taking your life.". I was shocked. I told his friends he was acting quite strangely. I felt like I was holding his hand while he was drowning. Like, I felt like a host to a leech or something. He was like a sympathy vaccuum.

His friends didnt believe me that he had issues. He seriously did. No one would care about his problems, or just that he wouldnt open up to them. They assured me he was ok. I still believed in what I already knew. I told a mutual friend who I knew would be ok with where I am and she straight up told them and I told her NOT to tell anyone. She told the whole group of friends he's in. And they furiously came at me and swore I had major issues.

I asked my friends for guidance on the issue. They wanted me to end it quick and leave him alone. I felt like I needed to be there for him, he was still unwell.

Then, we started talking again. He seemed much more happier than how he was before. I was assured he would be ok. He was coming along and came out as a happier, more better person than how he was a week and 1/2 ago. I was happy for him. Except for the fact he kept promising me we would do things together. We never did.

we then started texting each other. He was really upset that I told my friends about his actions with me in the past (basically this whole advice thing here). This was a while ago. They told me that we "shouldve been dating". He assumed that I lied, telling rumours, and was obsessed with him. I already told him MULTIPLE times I wasnt interested in him anymore but he wouldnt listen. I was starting to go in an all out text fight and then he said, "Im done talking bs with you im sorry for everything we need to be out of eachothers lives for a while and you need to detatch me from (I dont know if it was for me or for him but he put my here) life for a while ok ". and "im sorry it didnt work out i just need more time for school and less for these things." Ready for what I wondered. He said that we should talk face to face. He never wanted to tell me what it was. I tried to talk to him afterwards, I only saw him two times after that, I tried to get a hold of him the 2nd time, but he said "there is nothing to talk about" Im confused. I dont know what to do with him now at all. Respect what he's doing? Try to see what's wrong with him? I dont even know what to do anymore! HELP!

Post edited at 9:27 pm on Nov. 6, 2009 by Psychedelic Starling

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Kameneko is going to bite your hand :3

Get a hold of yourself and stop going after people who are out of state.
That's if you plan on visiting them and spending few days or weeks with them.

And yes, ignore all these people. They're like tidal waves.. comes in and goes out.

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Internet. Serious Business.