(feedback please!) Alexander: It's been such a long time since I've had a meaningful relationship with a woman.
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Actually, I don't think I've ever had one. I've had cutesy moments here and there with a few... I suppose I'm lucky; some guys don't even manage that much. There's really no reason for me to be so bent out of shape about love, or the lack of it. ...Is there?
I dunno... I'm just...
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Even talking about it leaves me confused. I'm staring at the wall for an answer to my own question... like always.
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I suppose, more than anything, I want to feel important. I want to feel needed. I want to matter to someone in such a deep way that when we embrace... we become the world. Or the world disappears... melts... dissolves... Does any of that make any sense?
...Listen to me going on and on about what I want! (chuckles) What an Asshole.
Still, it just blows my mind; How do I even know I want any of it? What it'll feel like? How I'll feel about it? And why the fuck do I want it if I don't even know how, what or why for?
I don't know....
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....Maybe someday i'll meet someone who'll understand. She'll say "stop over thinking it. Just shut up and kiss me."
And i'll love her for it.