Yet, family problems are dragging me down again. I can't put up with the constant arguments, and my brother wishing me dead for no reason. Mother frustrates me, for being so passive towards him and then taking her anger out on me.

Today it all got too much, and after yet another argument, I self-harmed. It's not good, I know, but I just can't cry. I feel too weak when I do, so I just give myself a headache by not crying instead, and then turn to self-harm. In fact, for a long while, it's just been a case of bottling it up. I think the last time would have been November.

I suffer from depression, and yet things were going well and I really didn't think I'd have to be prescribed anti-depressants. At the moment I feel like I'm slipping back into old ways, and I don't know what to do.   I miss my girlfriend so much, and there's no chance of us meeting up till the 14th of this month. Might even have to be the 15th. As for friends, well no one around here is worth anyone's time because they just end up betraying you and can't be relied on.

Sorry about this rant, I'm just having a tough day.

What did you do to your brother to make him dislike you so much? it must have been somthing totaly awful.

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"When the rich wage war, it's the poor who die."
Jean-Paul Sartre
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It's only 10 days till you see your girlfreind, i'm sure your antri depresants are doing there job.

What did you do to your brother to make him dislike you so much? it must have been somthing totaly awful.

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It's my mere existence. He hates me because the attention is sometimes spared from him.