I know whats done is done and there is no way I can reverse it, but there are a lot of things that have me extremely shaken pertaining to how I've reacted afterwards.

I've always been a very sexual person, and after what has happened it has turned into the exact opposite. Whenever the persons name is mentioned, sex is brought up, or if I even see people kissing I feel like I'm about to be sick.

I've been having flash backs and nightmares about what happened.

My moods have been completely uncontrollable.

What I would like to know is how I can get this to go away so I can go on with my life. I absolutely hate feeling this way, feeling disgusted and dirty constantly.

I am against shrinks and mood-altering medication.

If you cannot answer, would it be possible to direct me towards someone who will be able to? I've tried to find websites that deal with this sort of thing but I haven't been able to.

Thank you so much in advance for any replies, it is very much appreciated.