For the last year or so I've been getting 'episodes' of being depressed and really happy... Well... for the last few years actually - although recently they have been getting worse to the point where I no longer cut as a way to release pain.. I overdose on Paracetamol...
I have overdosed 3 times:
1st time: 10 tablets or 5000mg
2nd time: 15 tablets or 7500mg
3rd time: 21 tablets or 10,500mg
(I've never been to a doctor or the ER following an overdose.)
I've also been suffering from Anorexia Nervosa since I was 12; now I am 15.
So technically I guess they are linked... I'm trying to get better on my own, although it is hard.
To be honest I'm scared what will happen if I don't do something... maybe next time I'll take 50?.. Who knows?
I would go to the doctors, but I haven't been since I was little and to be honest I find it petrifying.
I just need to know what to do... I could tell my friend but again I find it petrifying.
Please give any advice possible... I'm on the verge at the moment.