Heyy. I totally understand the whole binge and purge type of thing, and believe me once you get sucked in it takes a long time to work your way out of it. But sometimes we just slip into these types of habits and it kind of just presents itself in our lives, so we run with it. The sad thing about all these types of things are the after effects. Sure we might look great in our bodies, but inside we're suffering. Whether it be mentally or physically, we're still going to suffer from the side effects. Since, to my knowledge, this hasn't been ongoing for longer than a three month period, it's pretty impossible for anyone to stick a label of 'bulimia nervosa' onto you (being that those are generally the requirements: twice a week for a three [or more] month period.)
The sucky side of the purging and binging sessions are that regardless of the amount of willpower we may have, sometimes it's just hard as hell to not give into and go and eat. In a sense, it's like our body is able to tell that we're full, but psychologically/mentally, our brain is saying to continue eating because we have been depriving ourselves from food for an extended period of time. Not only that, but the starvation periods in between honestly are terrible and all of that weight which we 'lost' is going to eventually come back one way or another. If not from the binging period, from later down the road. What some people don't realize is that when we do binge, regardless if we get the food out of us fast, a good amount of the caloric intake is generally still there. Not always, but in most cases. Just something to keep in the back of your mind.
Just to not make this long and drawn out, I found this for you:
What are the medical risks of purging disorder? source The medical risks vary slightly according to the purging methods used, and some are more serious than others. They include:
- Dehydration
- Anemia
- Electrolyte imbalances
- Low blood pressure (hypotension)
- Irregular heart beat (arrhythmia)
- Weakened heart muscle, leading to possible heart failure in severe cases
- Possible kidney infection or damage
- Intestinal problems, such as diarrhea and constipation
- Stomach ulcers
- Sores in the mouth
- Damage to the esophagus (if vomiting is one of the purging methods used)
- Broken blood vessels in the eyes, that may interfere with vision
- Overall muscle weakness, lethargy, and fatigue
Purging eating disorder also leads to anxiety and depression. Of course, anxiety and depression can lead to purging eating disorder, so it works both ways. People with the disorder can become clinically depressed and even suicidal.
I honestly don't think that you're going to be sent to the hospital for one dramatic weight loss. Chances are that your actual weight will be higher than expected, which is always good. To be honest, 4.5 pounds of loss isn't that much at all depending on your height, of course. Perhaps instead of thinking about your weight, you should bring forth all of the things that you feel would stop you from doing this. Prioritize your life, and make known in your mind things that are going on in your life. Keep yourself busy and happy, and just try not to let yourself fall down to something like an eating disorder. :] Good luck.
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