This weekend is a three day weekend, and I was suppsoed to go to Cali. Sadly, those plans fell through but I wasn't totally bummed because I figured it just meant I could spend 4 days (including today after school) with my boyfriend. This is extra special because he's in college so I don't see him too much. But tonight, he had plans to drive around the mountains for a couple hours with his friend. He said that he doens't want to let his friend down, but its not too big a deal and its up to me...
Well, in that case, I want him to tell his friend next weekend. I mean, come on! He lives with this guy! They dont do it today, oh well, they can reschedule for next friday. But I can't do that. I can't just see my boyfriend and hang with him whenever I please anymore.
I want to spend as much time with him as I can when I can before we go another few weeks not seeing each other. He asked me what I want...well the truth is I don't want to be put second! i want him to reschedule with this friend he sees everyday and has only known a couple weeks, and spend time with me who rarely sees him and has known him for 9 months. But I'm afraid if I say this, I'll come off as selfish and he'll only come down cause he feels obligated, not because he really wants to. And i dont want him to associate his visits with those negative feelings.
So do I bite my tongue and just let one day go? Or do I tell him how I really feel?
Post edited at 9:00 am on Sep. 4, 2009 by craziredbeauty13
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