We've broken up and gotten back together at least 3 times. During one of these breakups, the most recent one, he apparently contacted Carolina and told her that he was single.  They agreed that if we stayed broken up for more than a month then she would go out with him. He confessed this to me, I was so hurt, I cried for hours.

I had to email the Samaritans to ask for help. I was thinking, I'm not good enough for him, I'm not smart or pretty enough, I'm not making him happy. I was so depressed, I thought about overdosing. He dumped me again a few days ago, and I've been so depressed and I've cried every night. I knowe I deserve better than him. I know that I have to get over him, but I can't. I'm so in love and I can't seem to let go. I'm afraid that if I lose him no one else will want me and I will end up alone forever. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone else.

He told me he broke up with me because I don't have enough time for him. He tries to make me stay up late after homework to talk to him, but I usually end up falling asleep because I'm so tired from 3 hour band rehearsals and 4 hours of homework. He also says I don't ever want to talk on the phone with him, and it pisses him off because he "misses my voice." I personally think these are bullshit reasons and he must have some other, bigger reason to dump me. we just takled today on AIM, and he tried to get me back, I first said yes, but then he told me I had too much of an attitude and told me he'd rather be single. So I took it back. He said, "I'm going to find someone else, so don't get butt hurt when I tell you about her." And then he said, "I'm with CArolina." he waited a moment and said "that's how it would feel when I would tell you. Did it hurt? I'm not really with her but I wanted you to see how it felt." I called him a hurtful bastard and blocked him. He tried to talk on my other screen name and I blocked him there too. He messaged me here and of course, I blocked him.

I'm sorry this was so long, I just have no one to go to. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say to him. I don't know how to get over him. I'm jsut at a loss and I'm so depressed. Please help.

Post edited at 5:29 pm on Sep. 6, 2008 by Anonymous

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I knowe I deserve better than him. I know that I have to get over him,

I called him a hurtful bastard and blocked him. and I blocked him there too. and of course, I blocked him.

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you know what to do, you just dont want to do it.

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

just cut him loose, he is a prick, you dont need him, you will end up alone is you keep talking to him.

it was a bad break up, you cant still be friends with him if you still like him.

meet someone new

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today will be what you make of it, live it up.

You know that you deserve better than him, which is a good sign. You should probably talk to your parents/guardians/friends/school teacher/counseller about the way you're feeling if you're suicidal. As hard as it is to actually speak your thoughts to someone, you'll feel better knowing that there are actually people out there who care about you.

Everyone thinks that 'they're not good enough for him/her' and that's a load of crap. No one is 'too' good for someone. Or 'out of their league'. You will meet someone, but for now its probably best to stay single for a while, get your friends/family whatever to pick up the slack, after all; its why we have friends and family etc. Get your head together, sort out what you want to do with your life and so on.

Just try to enjoy life for what is has to offer you. You should also probaly look at making a new AIM thingo and just add your friends onto it, and maybe change your mobile number so he can't contact you etc. You just need to aviod as much contact with him as you can. If you can do that, you'll start to feel better. Even if you still are in love with him.

My ex hurt me really badly and we officialy broke up in January towards the end.. That was 9months ago, and im still huting from it, but i still love her, i also dispise her and what she did to me.. But thats how it goes i suppose.. Just get your head together firtsly, and get supoprt from your friends and family, and look at getting a counseller. Don't bother telling your ex about the emotional pain he's put you through etc, because he won't give a shit.
Good luck, and take care of yourself.

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Obviously you know the guy is a jackass. Which is the 1st step of moving on.
I think that what you're going through is pretty tough. I kidna feel the same way when i think about my ex, all the shit she put me through.

You know that you deserve better than him, which is a good sign. You should probably talk to your parents/guardians/friends/school teacher/counseller about the way you're feeling if you're suicidal. As hard as it is to actually speak your thoughts to someone, you'll feel better knowing that there are actually people out there who care about you.

Everyone thinks that 'they're not good enough for him/her' and that's a load of crap. No one is 'too' good for someone. Or 'out of their league'. You will meet someone, but for now its probably best to stay single for a while, get your friends/family whatever to pick up the slack, after all; its why we have friends and family etc. Get your head together, sort out what you want to do with your life and so on.

Just try to enjoy life for what is has to offer you. You should also probaly look at making a new AIM thingo and just add your friends onto it, and maybe change your mobile number so he can't contact you etc. You just need to aviod as much contact with him as you can. If you can do that, you'll start to feel better. Even if you still are in love with him.

My ex hurt me really badly and we officialy broke up in January towards the end.. That was 9months ago, and im still huting from it, but i still love her, i also dispise her and what she did to me.. But thats how it goes i suppose.. Just get your head together firtsly, and get supoprt from your friends and family, and look at getting a counseller. Don't bother telling your ex about the emotional pain he's put you through etc, because he won't give a shit.  
Good luck, and take care of yourself.

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Thank you. I really appreciate all that advice.