Im a male not female. kk for about 3 years now, i got this one guy friend who me and him are close like brothers. (ive knows him for over 8 years but only feeling this way for 3ish) its weird, im trying to get with a girl but at the same time i have the same type of feelings for him. it started 2 years ago I stayed at his house and was drinking. I didnt drink that much so it wasent because i was drunk. I went into his room and peeked under his blankets (he sleeps nude) and for some reason i enjoyed it. And even to this day ive got the same feelings for him. but its towards this one guy and no other guys, and i after had many of girlfriends and im not a virgin.

Everytime We drink, i dont drink much if im with him, because i wanna be able to take care of him if he got sick. these feelings are  odd to me,  i hate it because its messing up my feelings. Makeing me stressed out. i even get stressed if he talks to a girl. Well i guess i gets jealous of him easly.

He moved up away i only see him every 6-8 months It sucks, even thow i have these feelings for him im not gonna stop being friends because of it, we been to close together for to long. We do almost everything together. hes someone who, honestly i will take my life to spare his. I just don't knwo what to do. :(