loneliness is killing me i dont even think im a person anymore i dont feel i dont hate i just.. emotions are gone i feel like im half dead as is i have no real friends and im weird i mean i KNOW people and i talk to them and i can talk to people but.. its like.. i have no real friends noone that needs me noone that realy wants me around i just exist and it sucks its nothing new but im 16 and the only time i was ever kissed was when i felt so bad for this girl that liked me because everyone hated her (she smelled bad personality etc. i tried to be her friend..) and she was at my house and made a move on me and i didnt wana be like OMG EWW GROSS GET OUT i mean fuck im a loser im not hot or particularly interesting i mean im funny i guess i make people laugh and im kind of a smart ass.. i just feel like.. i duno.. i have 57 people in my contacts on my phone and not one person to actually talk to.. im pathetic and i just.. i duno i hate myself and im not fishing for sympathy or Omgawds im sorry im just kinda haveing a mental break down and needed to jot down the random thoughts that are spewing out of my head.. anyways those are a few
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