So I thought maybe I should just get out of here.  I can't find a job though.  I've been looking.  I apply for jobs every day.  Nothing.  I'm  18 and have no work experience.  I had an interview last spring and I blew it.  I had a panic attack.

So I can't afford to get my own place right now.  I thought maybe I could go to a shelter just for a bit.  But the shelters around here are not trans-friendly at all.  There is a youth shelter but I'm too old, and there's an LGBT youth shelter for 13-21 year olds but one part of it is full and the other part is for people with drug and alcohol problems. Which I do not have.

Do I dare leave the area and therefor suspend my college education?  If I stay here I have a feeling I'm going to fail all of my classes anyways.

I feel helpless and hopeless.

You're going through a rough time, I'm not going to deny that. Sometimes life sucks, as you've learned first hand. Sometimes it seems like the bad news just keeps coming and we never get anything good around the bend. I've always been pretty optimistic, so it's easy for me to try to say "the glass is half full!", "just keep your chin up, something good will happen" and other cliches, but I really don't think that's going to help you or make you feel any better.

Do you know anyone else who is transgender? I'm not sure if that is causing a lot of issues for you (but it does seem to be causing a lot of family stress), so perhaps being able to talk with someone who was in a similar position to yours would help? Is there some sort of job counselor at your school? Perhaps you could try signing up for an employment agency as well?

I'm sorry hun. I want to help, I just...really am not sure what to say. A lot of what you talked about is how you feel, and although I want to make you feel better that's out of my control.

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