we all picked some out and i got into the changing rooms in a happy mood then started to undress to try on the dress and was greeted by row upon row of cuts and scars.

the ones on my legs were hidden ok but the ones on my arms were in full view as the dress was strapless.

i nearly had a panic attack there and then. my friends know nothing about my depression or SI and i just about managed to hide it.

no-one said anything or looked at me funny but it put me on edge for the rest of the day and i couldn't go back to being happy.

grrr sometimes i really hate myself for doing this to myself and preventing me from having fun with my friends.

god knows how i am going to hide them and survive the party next week.


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I dont want the world to see me, cause I dont think that they'd understand.
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

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You could wear one of those long sleved things ,their basicaly like a short cardigan with long sleves that is like cut underneath u chest (dont know what they are called sorry bout the crap description)
Don't blame ur self it really wont help in the long run.
U can use bio oil 2 fade the,works quite well.

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Bolero?

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If I could hold a star for everytime you make me smile,
I would have to hold the whole night sky in the palm of my hands.