Have you ever felt like nobody loves you.
or have you ever felt like love doesnt exist and that everybody is just in it for themselves and their needs. when i say everybody, i mean not even your own family.
have you ever gotten to the point where you just don't give a fuck about anything or anybody except for yourself?
my dad left to go to europe, he left 6 months ago and i don't think he is coming back.
my mom is a straight out bitch. bitches at me all the time, doesn't appreciate any fucking thing that i do. Calls me a mistake sometimes and how i wasn't planned. It's like she hates me...but it's ok, i don't like her either.
my sister clearly doesn't give a fuck about me.
i am kinda confused for my aunts, i am not sure if they love me cause they REALLY don't show it. i used to feel love from them but ever since they got married and had kids, it's like they don't give a fuck about me.
My grandfather which was probly the ONLY person that i feel that REALLY-truely loved but he died 2 years ago, i felt at the top of his list.
i have friends but friendship is not love.
i have a girlfriend but in high school, you can barely even call it love.
Today, for the first time in my life, i broke down. i actually cried for the first time in a couple years and i grabbed a picture of my grandfather and stared at it while crying. i also kept on repeating "fuck everybody", the funny thing about it was that i couldn't stop even if i wanted to, i just kept repeating it and repeating it to the point where it freaked me out.
Then some tupac lines just repeated in my head:
"Nobody sees my struggle,
they only see the trouble,
not knowing is hard to carry on when no ones loves you"
and
"Keep your mind and your money - enroll in school,
and as the years pass by, you can show them fools"
then i listen to some other songs of his like "fuck the world", "me against the world", "fuck all y'all", "fuck friendz", "they dont gie a fuck about us" and even "cleaning out my closet" by eminem.
Those "fools" i kept thinking bout was my family.
Right now i feel so angry, to the point where i just want to beat the fuck out of somebody.
Now i just want to live life by the line "fuck everybody"
Nobody has to reply to this or comment, i just wanted to get it off my chest.
Post edited at 7:38 pm on Oct. 6, 2008 by IllyrianKing
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Fuck reading that shit. 
