i feel like absolute shit right now. i don't really know why. i've been getting more and more down lately. when it hits me i feel so alone, i can't stand it. i fucking hate the loneliness. what's the point being off drugs if i feel like this. so alone all the time. like there's an invisible wall in between me and the world. stuck in a bubble. nobody can tell me it's withdrawal anymore, it's not. it's been over 6 months. i'm well recovered from that. i feel how i did right before i started using. it took it all away.
why does it hurt so bad? i came to this site feeling like this and that was over two years ago now. that's long fucking term. i hate this so much.
i don't want to be alone.