I've lived a thousand lifetimes in 21 years.

I can't breathe, anymore.

I'm sick, physically..

And, so so tired inside.

My body cries out for the grave.

It's not much longer, now.

My love..Is still in my heart..Always, and, forever.

And, love..True, unconditional love has been the one thing that both has killed me, and, kept me alive, in all of the entirety of my life.

My girlfriend..Not my own.

My last girlfriend..Never was mine..

The one before t hat, I hurt so bad.

The one before that..Still owns my soul, today.

I will be forever..The one who loves..Who loved..And, yet, was loveless.

Forever, and, until all of eternity fades, I am yours, forever.

My soul burns in anguish, my cries go unheard.

My heart, trampled, and, bruised.

I must disappear now, before, I break, forever..

But, it only hurts, just for a little while..

There has to be peace, somewhere.

I've forsaken all that I know to be right, and, truth, and, life.

And, exchanged it for a lie..A burning, black, lie.

Torment, forever.

Until this life makes me die.

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Life is not a movie. Good guys lose. Everybody lies.
And love does not conquer all.