I went home last night to take a break from college cause i was pretty stressed out. My roommate called after a few hours and it was nice cause I felt like i was really myself and opened up. This morning too, I finally felt comfortable socially in college. However, when I got back to my room, I went back to my old self. My roommate was with this girl who I guess really puts on the pressure for me to socialize. I thought i could handle her just cause my confidence was good, and it was actually nice for a bit, but at some point i started doubting myself and let my head get to me. I know i'm overwhelming myself socially, but its the beginning of college and i guess it feels right. But the moment i doubt myself, i give up on everything (especially putting an effort into being social) .. why cant i just keep trying and not lose all confidence?
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Life is fine. Fine like wine.