So, instead of constantly trying to solve this problem with people getting hairs up their asses, I'm going back to therapy and getting put back on the medication. This self medicated shit isn't working, and I'm curious to see if it's me or them. But my manager laughed when I told her I need to be off early on the first (She forced me to tell her what kind of doctors appointment it was.) and what she said to me was infuriating. In fact, I'll probably be talking about it for the next month to both my new and my old therapist.

I'm just so fucking pissed at both myself and at everyone else. It just seems like I always have to be angry and near tears. Or if I'm happy someone goes out of their way to make my day hell. So instead I put on a neutral face so no one can tell. I don't know what to do about my co-workers. I don't appreciate being called stupid all the time, or being treated like I can't be trusted to do my job right.

In fact, I'm tired of people saying I freak out, when I don't. People start yelling at me, and calling me names I treat them the same (Even though I shouldn't.). Apparently I don't know my own verbal strength, even though to me that's nothing.

I feel like a shitty person.

/rant

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Like a runaway

Get grandma medicine, work wonders.

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My country, very support the America ways.
Once was I lost, now found. Many blessings.

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Sounds like maybe you need to get a new job.

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All entry level jobs are the same. They all suck and everyone's an ass. There is no point in switching.

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Like a runaway