I have a bf, but I barely get to speak to him as he is at the other side of the world at the moment, and with his work and the time difference it's so difficult. I haven't spoken to him in like four days now. And when we do speak it's just a message on myspace until he gets a day off then I might be lucky if we talk on msn for a bit.

I'm just so angry and depressed at the moment, all I want to do is cut. I haven't cut in like three months. At the same time I don't really want to as I will just have to start all over with trying to stop but the urge is still there and I know it will take all these feelings away for a bit.

I'm not really looking for advice or whatever, I guess I just needed to say some things as I can't say it anywhere else.